Where I Stand As A Female As Of Now....

No one really understands how I think and feel now. When people ask me why I'm single,I don't really know how to answer because for me there's so many reasons. It's such a loaded question. I have issues I have to work through and I know this. I'm scared,scratch that,I'm terrified of getting hurt again. I know this is going to sound totally cliche but I'm damaged goods. I'm not only afraid of getting my heart broken but I'm scared,truly scared,of even being alone with a dude that I don't know. So,in my lonesome, I think how can I meet a guy and get to know a guy if I'm terrified of being alone with a handsome stranger. Is he really bad? Is he really giving me bad vibes? Has he really done anything to me make me doubt him? He probably hasn't other than the things I make up in my imagination to save myself. "Save myself from what?",I ask myself. I'm fighting to save myself from getting hurt,getting too close,getting fooled,getting taken advantage of,getting my kindness taken for weakness, and so much more. I could lie and say that this is normal or smart but I know it isn't. I know I need to let these walls down eventually but for now fooling myself into thinking this is totally fine is keeping me content. Yes I'll admit,even with trying to talk myself into thinking it's normal to do what I'm doing,I seek help at times but I just can't find it. Nothing or no one seems to help. My problems are mental and can't be solved because I've been hurt,hurt like so many others have been. For me though,this hurt hits me so much deeper that people think. Even deeper than I thought it ever could have. It still stings everyday although I try not let the way I feel inside take over my life like others do but in reality its killing me.Most guys only come to want one thing from me and I'm afraid that its gonna start affecting the way I feel about myself and see myself. I'm on the fence about whether I feel too good for most guys now or not good enough for any guy. That's a big stretch,I know. It's crazy because I have high self esteem,and I'm very confident but question is "Have I made myself unreachable for anyone to get through to me?". I'm afraid I have. It seems as though it's going to take a really great,honest and different kind of guy to get through these walls I've built around my heart. Considering that not many guys seem to be able to handle or respect a strong female such as myself,that looks like it's going to take a very long time.