Pregnancy

Pregnancy is a beautiful thing when it's the right time with the right person. Some people really abuse this to where its become sad and too common. Some people do the right thing,all the right things,in the right order,and end up dealing with tragedies- can't conceive,can't carry to term,lose babies and then you have some people who do all the wrong things,at the wrong time with the wrong people and have beautiful outcomes. It's not their fault but it's not fair. They've turned pregnancy into an everyday thing,taking away all the beauty and amazement out of it. You won't be seeing me abusing the beautiful and amazing thing my body can do just because some guy says I'm pretty.

Adolescence

Adolescence is the beginning of the end because the moment you fall in love, you give away the best part of yourself.

From the book Triangles by Ellen Hopkins

Confusion is the worst...It ends tomorrow.

So what do you do when you like someone and you have no idea how they feel? When the signals were once there,but seem to have faded? Do you assume? Over-analyze? Drive yourself crazy wondering? Try to make yourself forget? Make yourself get over it? Just ask the other person? Sometimes,(scratch that)most of the time,those things are easier than that last one. What's there to be scared of,really? You should never be scared of spoken truths... only the words left unsaid. The things that go unnoticed. The feelings that go un-felt or unknown. You either let the confusion dwell....,until you feel strong enough,which may never happen. Or you take control of you own life and situation and do the mature,smart thing and ask. Speak your mind. Confusion is the worst? My state of confusion will end tomorrow. No more wondering,I'll just ask,get my answer, and be done with all the over analyzing,wondering, and confusion. Tomorrow...tomorrow is the day. Tomorrow I'll be brave.

The Heart of a Woman

The heart of a woman will never be found in the arms of a man.

Never be Punished

I will never be punished for the frustrations of an insecure man.

"I Don't Give A Shit" list

I can't stress this enough,when I say that I HATE!!!!! when dudes talk down to me. Please please please tell me,that this doesn't work other than in Fifty Shades of Grey. The minute,no the second that a dude tries to control or tell me what to do,I get so aggrivated that I almost immediately put them on the "I Don't Give A Shit" list. There's the warning and I only give it once. I have a mind of my own and if you don't like it,that's just too damn bad.

I know who I am and what I want. Sorry for those of you who don't

So,I've been told that I give dudes too much credit or the benefit of the doubt because I give dudes a chance. Is it wrong that I sort of believe that there are good dudes out there even though they're rare? I don't think I'm wrong. Maybe because I have 4 great guy friends...that right there tells me that good guys do exist. Female friends said that I still believe in the "fairy tale" story so to speak. I don't see it that way. Maybe I just have faith or want to have faith because I do want something real. Is there something wrong with that? I do want a guy,a guy that's real and can be my best friend,boyfriend,other half-someone I can share my time with. I do want something real. Do I need it here and now? No,I dont and I refuse to go spending all my time looking for it. I'd rather let it find me. I still think I'm strong and I don't think my faith in something real changes that. If I end up being wrong,then I am and I learn from it and move on and use it to better my future. That just makes me stronger. I won't sacrifice myself to benefit anyone else. I come first above all else. But I believe that you can't get anything with giving in a little bit. I'll continue to have faith and I know I deserve something good and it will come to me. As long as I know me and who I am and what I want then I'll be fine. I think maybe I just show different sides of myself...one side in front of my female friends and one in front of guys. Of course I'm gonna show guys that they can't mess with me,whereas I'm gonna show a softer side to my female friends because the softer side is part of me. The guys that come in and out of my life don't deserve that side of me yet. When trust comes,trust that I have for them,then they'll get to see that side of me. My friends,whether male or female,deserve to see and know every side of me and they do see both. I dont think that makes me weak. I think I'm strong and even stronger to admit it. I know who I am,truly. I'm sorry for those of you who don't and just follow others and trends. I follow no one.