I know who I am and what I want. Sorry for those of you who don't

So,I've been told that I give dudes too much credit or the benefit of the doubt because I give dudes a chance. Is it wrong that I sort of believe that there are good dudes out there even though they're rare? I don't think I'm wrong. Maybe because I have 4 great guy friends...that right there tells me that good guys do exist. Female friends said that I still believe in the "fairy tale" story so to speak. I don't see it that way. Maybe I just have faith or want to have faith because I do want something real. Is there something wrong with that? I do want a guy,a guy that's real and can be my best friend,boyfriend,other half-someone I can share my time with. I do want something real. Do I need it here and now? No,I dont and I refuse to go spending all my time looking for it. I'd rather let it find me. I still think I'm strong and I don't think my faith in something real changes that. If I end up being wrong,then I am and I learn from it and move on and use it to better my future. That just makes me stronger. I won't sacrifice myself to benefit anyone else. I come first above all else. But I believe that you can't get anything with giving in a little bit. I'll continue to have faith and I know I deserve something good and it will come to me. As long as I know me and who I am and what I want then I'll be fine. I think maybe I just show different sides of myself...one side in front of my female friends and one in front of guys. Of course I'm gonna show guys that they can't mess with me,whereas I'm gonna show a softer side to my female friends because the softer side is part of me. The guys that come in and out of my life don't deserve that side of me yet. When trust comes,trust that I have for them,then they'll get to see that side of me. My friends,whether male or female,deserve to see and know every side of me and they do see both. I dont think that makes me weak. I think I'm strong and even stronger to admit it. I know who I am,truly. I'm sorry for those of you who don't and just follow others and trends. I follow no one.