You Used to Shine so Bright to me....

When this first again,you shined as bright as the sun in my eyes. Now,its changing and you're appeal,you're allure is fading. I remember wondering,why on Earth someone would let you go...if things were the same with them as they are now with me,then I know exactly why. I wonder though,were they the same? Or am I just not important enough? I seem to get disregarded so easily. Why talk of plans if they never get followed? If they just get disregarded? If everyone else is more important? It hasn't been very long,but I think things are getting too comfortable,at least for you. I feel like I go out of my way-to call you,to see you,to help you,and I don't want to anymore. I want to be the one getting pursued. I deserve it. I deserve to feel special. Even more than that,I deserve to feel special because of you,that's what I want and I choose what's good for me and what I deserve. I deserve you. I actually probably deserve better but then again maybe I don't. Maybe I'm not worth more than this,more than being sad,feeling hurt,more than feeling lonely,neglected,more than being last on your list,being disregarded by you over and over. In the beginning,you shined so bright but now I look at you.and the light is getting dull. One day,sooner or later,that light will be out completely and I'll wondering what I was thinking. It's not like it would be the first time I was wrong and it definitely won't be the last time.