Here comes the regret...Here comes good bye...

*Regret-to feel sorrow or remorse for an act, fault, or disappointment;to think of with a sense of loss.

I spoke the words first. I told you how I felt,even though I didn't think I should have. Your situation was different than mine. You had only recently been broken where as I had had years to heal. Was I afraid to tell you how I felt...? No I wasn't. What was the worst that could've happened? You didn't feel the same? Yea that would've been the worst but I could then know I tried and I could get over it without regretting never saying it. Instead,you shared my feelings and our new found friendship became much more,fast. Before I start to sound selfish,I don't regret what we became. I don't regret the weeks we did have together or the time we spent. I don't regret the kisses,jokes, and laughs we shared. I'll never forget them or you. I do,however,wonder if any of it would have happened if I never told you my feelings? Would we still have ended up where we are right now? Did I just start it up a little sooner by speaking out? Was it fate? If it was fate,I wonder how it would've started without me telling you my feelings first. Will we have another chance?...somewhere later on,down the line? I can only hope so. I can only hope so because soon you'll be gone. As much as I don't want you to,I hope that you reasons for going pay off...that some stress is lifted off your shoulders. Secretly and selfishly,I hope you don't find another me too soon,partly because I know I won't find another you and maybe I don't want to. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed that we have another chance later on,in the future. I'll be hoping this isn't completely over. I'll be hoping this isn't good-bye. So I'll say good bye for now...